The Plan

Here is the plan:

1) Get my transfer degree from Chemeketa.

2) Apply to their nursing program untill I get accepted.

3) Complete my nursing program ASAP.

4) Get my B.S. in Journalism n' Communication from U of O ASAP.

5) Work atleast part-time as a Nurse Assistant.

6) Make plans for my future bussiness.

The Media and Free Speech - Questions

Hello world.

I haven't posted for a long time. I'm not sure if anyone reads my blog anyways.

I've been attending class and so on. My instructor for Intro to Mass Communication gave us a handout. We had to answer four questions and turn it in Monday. For fun, I thought I'd post my answers. Please let me know how you'd answer the questions and what you think of mine. I can take critisim well. If it's constructive.

Here are the four questions and my answers:

1. Doctors usually can’t testify in court about patients, lawyers about clients, priests about confessors. Is there a significant difference among these situations and journalists and their news sources? Explain; justify your answer.

In court, doctors, lawyers, and priests’ clients are not usually anonymous but in journalism a news source can be and has been anonymous.

How do you hold a news source accountable should their knowledge prove false if they claim anonymity?

With the other professions, you have someone present to account for but with anonymous news sources the information or perhaps the journalist is on trial and not the source.

2. Why can’t you libel a dead person? Can you sue for libel if what has been said about you simply hurts you feelings? Explain; justify your answer.

If I make a statement about a person and he/she sued me for libel then they would have to prove that it was a false statement. Dead people don’t speak.

In America you can sue for many reasons especially for reasons that hurt you like statements made verbally (slander) or in writing (libel). Winning is another topic.



3. Should advertisers have the same free speech guarantees that you do? Why? Justify your answer.

Advertisers seek to further their own goals through whatever method of communication they choose. Their main goal is to increase the bottom line. Commercial speech should not be given the same free speech guarantees that I have because their motives could entice them to sell at any cost.

4. Defend or attack this position: “The first rule of the media is to make money; ethical conduct is a by-product of luxury. If they go bankrupt, then their ethical conduct is irrelevant.”

What does ethical conduct mean anyways? Ethics is a belief system. Conduct can mean behavior or action. Ethical conduct together is what an individual or group believes is the “right way to behave”. Media companies who can’t afford to operate are “dead”. In order to behave in a certain way (right or wrong) you need to be alive first.

According to Wikipedia.com, “A by-product is a secondary or incidental product … and is not the primary product or service being produced.”

Media companies who have money can afford to be ethical. They can afford to print, air their shows, and stream their “by-product”.

The first intention is to make money to survive and the second is to be ethical.

Desire

When you desire something with all your heart the Lord finds ways of satisfying your true needs. - Roselyn Lucas

What you desire may not always be what you need. We can justify our desire and make the reasins sound right but the Lord know more then we do of what we truelly need. Trust in Him.

Final Grades for Winter Term !!

I received an A in my Advertising and Journalism class !!!! I also received an A in my Spanish class!!!!

I am so proud of myself! I worked hard for those A's !!!

For spring term, I am taking Theater which will introduce me to the world of acting and Intro. to Mass Media. Intro. to Mass Media is a journalism class which will introduce me to the huge world of media.

Media is what we read, see, hear. Media is what we communicate through or what we use to communicate with. Media includes magazines, newspapers, internet and radio. For spring term I plan on adding to my knowledge bank on the topic Mass Media. I am so excited!

Yeah I got an A !! Two A's actually. :)

Write-Her, Right Here - It's time to get serious.

I finished my first press release for Project Multimedia. I plan on sending it tommorow to all the local news papers in hopes of getting some publicity for our company.
















Excuse me, let me intorduce the company ... Project Multimedia (PM). I don't own the company but I work for the company. The owners are Hamil Poton and Carlos Landa. Two creative guys located in Salem, Oregon. You can view our comapny websites at www.projectmultimedida.biz .

Pretty soon you will be able to view all of my work on my very own professional web site that Hamil, the web guy for PM, is developing and hosting. I will categorize all my pieces so that you can view my work by type. For example press releases will be under Press Releases and any interviews I do will be under Interviews.

Speaking of interviews, I have one tomorrow and I am up at 1 in the morning writing! I am very much a night person! I need to go to bed.

This is great though. I feel great after writing. It's like excersizing only for my brain and that feels wonderful.

Good night!

Flying Hair

Today

I had an interview today; it was about a House Mom position for a foundation that helps pregnant teens. I hope they call me.

I was a teen mom and I struggled growing up. Years later the Lord saved me and guided me. I did act like a rebellious child (and still on occasion do) but my Father loves me and sticks by me through all my struggles.

Somehow I want to thank Him. So I am in search of my purpose. I wonder if I'll ever realize it. Hmmm.... Whatever it is I hope I haven't failed.

Sometimes it is hard to look in at your self and see if you are headed in the right direction. I'm sure the Lord will guide me.

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I want to write. That's all I want to do. Why can't I make a living just writitng the days away.

Endless words on a glowing computer screen and the occasional smoothly threaded paper. I'd listen to classical music and write away.

Instead I have a final tomorrow and I should be studying. I have already studied 3 hours or so. I need a break and some art to release my soul.

Ok, I'll quit being corny, "Art to release my soul."

Person from The Past

People hurt people in many different ways on many different levels.

If someone hurt me I'd eventually forgive that person and make an effort, atleast a small one, to stay friends. I never really liked to disapoint people because that would make me feel bad. I guess ... I'm a people pleaser, or atleast I try to be.

All People have good in them, right? People also treat people differntly then the next.

She is a person from the past.



Introduction:

"Give me a hug! I've missed you," she reaches for me.

I relunctlantly accept her hug. She is a person from the past. Earlier that week her daughter, my neice, said the same thing to me.

"What is going on?" I thought to myself.

We exchanged pleasentries and I eventually invite her in. She showed up at my door with my daughter. She gave her a ride home from my mothers home. My mother is a woman I wonder about. I really don't understand my mom but I think she secretly hates me in a motherly way. (Sorry if that doesn't make sense but my childhood didn't either.)

I thought I had ended our friendship. It never works out. We don't care for each other. Atleast not like real friends do. If she needed something of course I'd help if she asked but a stranger with a good heart would do the same.


She goes on about all these new things happening in her life and her new found freedom. She recently made a big decision.

I tell her, "Great for you."

I was sincerely excited for her despite how I feel about our "friendship". I thought I made a clean break but it's hard when she is the mother of my neice. She isn't that bad. I just don't trust her and I'm pretty sure she feels the same way about me.

We grew up together. We had a past, an unpleasent one. We always quietly competed with each other. Analyzing what each other had or didn't have. Who gained weight more and so on. Real friends don't do that. Yet She considered me a friend? Perhaps the friend deserves a better definition then the one given when we were younger.


I'm changing. I have learned the hard way what constitutes as love. I have yet to understand friendship. I'm just trying to survive. Life is so much more complicated when you get older.

"Thats wonderful," I told Her, "I'm so happy for you. It's like an adenture." She contiued on about the freedom she felt. She seemed excited to share with me her life. It was nice to hear her story.

Whenever anyone can find pleasure in their life that is wonderful.

End Introduction.

Art

Art can relaease the soul and alow us to breath so we may acomplish the tasks that have been so heavely laid before us. -Roselyn Lucas

Spring Break !!

This term is almost over. I can hardly wait. Next week I have one final for spanish.

Estoy nerviosa poquito pero yo estudio mucho. I hope I wrote that right. I have the stucture in my head but my mind is slow at accessing it. Practice practice practice.

Next term I signed up for theater and a writing class. In the theater class I will learn basic terminology used in the business and some basic acting skills. My writing class is all about logic and composition. I have taken several writing classes already but I guess I need one more in order to get my transfer degree.

I will apply for admissions at Univeristy of Oregon fall 2009 ! I am so excited. I want to attend their School of Journalism and Communication.

I still have my CNA license but I kind of want to get a job as something else. I am good as a CNA but I wonder if I could succeed in a different field perhaps journalism. Will see where my heart leads me.

Midnight Thoughts

At home on my little soft forest green couch. My mother gave me this couch. It's been in our family since I was a lost teenager. I remeber sleeping on it on the weekends because all my "friends" were over and there was no room for them in my cozy room. We all wanted to be togethere. When we're young we never really want to be alone; do we?

In June I'll be 26 years old. Life is going by pretty fast now. When I was younger it seemed like time would just drag along.

For spring term at college I'll be taking acting classes or Theater ... I hope they teach me how to act. Acting could be useful in embaressing situations. I could act like I don't care and then when I get home I can safely reveal my feelings.

I also signed up for a class on near eastern religion which I think consist of cristianity, muslim or islam and some other religion. I am not sure if I'll stick with it but there is and 80% chance I will. I have been longing for some understanding in that area.

I miss God. I know he has never left me but I think I've strayed away a little more. I feel so sad right now and if I was closer to Him maybe I would feel bettter. Since I don't I think I may have strayed away. Sounds strange almost doesn't it?

I would like to find a job I enjoy doing. I haven't enjoyed working for awhile now. I don't get paid enough at my current job and I need to pay bills. I don't know how to be an entrpreneur. Owning your own business is not what it's sounds like. I don't own my own business but I know those who do and they struggle alot with many different things all at once. very stressful.

Modeling

So I have been to many photo shoots. It's alot of work to get set up and coordinate everybody.

The last photo shoot I helped with there was to many people trying to direct. Ahhh...So how do you deal with that?

I never really considered modeling I was scouted out by an agency once when I was 18 years old but I turned them down because I didn't believe in myself. To be a model you need to be confident. WHile I feel I'm pretty I don't think I am model material. I'd hate to admit it for some odd reason but I wish I was. I know I'm not ugly but... who doesn't like the thought of being the beautiful girl? I don't think of it much but lately I've been looking in the mirror alot. It's because of this beauty expo.

I guess I need to strighten my priority out a bit and remember who I am. I like me anyways. I don't have the money to be a glamour girl or the time so why try? I know the answer ... we can't all be models right. I guess I like the attention.

Making Something From Nothing

Sometimes you just have to put yourself out there and believe in yourself even if everything else says you'll fail.

My Hamil beleives in me but sometimes I have crazy ideas or ideas that aren't planned out so well.

I have learned to write out my goals every time I am trying to aquire anything like services or products. I state the goal concisely. Then I write out a plan. I also list things I need and from where they might come from. Then I exucute my plan.

My plan right now is to study my spanish because my goal is to get an A and actually have learned some simple spanish. I need the A to keep my Fin Aid and continue school.

This woman has goals and dreams. Good Night. I hope to write more later.

Photo Shoot - Beach

Maria Pau - Model Coach International

Modeling is not what you think it is. Modeling is more than just looks.


Maria Pau is an international model coach and so much more. She is an extraordinary and highly confident person. In person she is just as beautiful as she is in her photos; strong, knowledgeable, and creative.

I had only four questions for her since time was limited. She has been coordinating a huge modeling event that will take place March 8 - 9 at the Oregon State Fairgrounds in their Columbia Hall. The grand event begins 12 noon. You can buy tickets to the event on their website http://www.modelcoachinternational.com/ and in stores at Lancaster Mall and Salem Center.

Modeling has many obvious benefits like clothing, getting your hair and make-up professionally done, but when asked what she loved most about modeling Maria Pau extraordinaire undoubtedly answered, "Traveling." She pulls out her passport, "I love to travel. I have been everywhere. " She flips through the many stamped pages in her passport book. I was in awe. After all, I've never been anywhere but California. She also mentioned that this was her second passport. Can you imagine traveling to so many places that you fill up two passport books?

Maria Pau started modeling when she was 16 years old. At the time she lived in Australia. As soon as a modeling scout spotted her, they signed the young beauty on the spot. My next question was if she was nervous when she first started her career in modeling. At the time she was signed, no formal model training schools where offered to her and she was basically thrown into one modeling job after another. Her response was, "... you don't have time to be nervous. That's how they train."

Over at least 15 years of experience, Maria Pau is now semi-retired as a model. She was hesitant to reveal her true age but I must say she looked to be in her late 20's rather than her 30's. So how did Maria Pau get into model coaching? Well she is more then just a model or a modeling scout; she is a life coach. She is completing her fifth degree and speaks five different languages, and she loves to read self-help books. She recommneded a book by Robert Hargrove, Masterful Coaching.

Maria Pau is definitely a knowledgeable person. She noticed that the modeling industry had gaps in it. "What do you mean gaps?" I was intrigued. Maria Pau answered, "Drugs, girls not eating and being too skinny, and the lifestyle associated with modeling." After hearing this I was impressed by her. She wants to help improve the image of the modeling industry. At the interview she had me read the International Coach Federation (ICF) code of ethics which is what she goes by. I've included Part 1 and 2 of it below:

Part One: The ICF Philosophy of Coaching

The International Coach Federation adheres to a form of coaching that honors the client as the expert in his/her life and work and believes that every client is creative, resourceful, and whole. Standing on this foundation, the coach's responsibility is to:

- Discover, clarify, and align with what the client wants to achieve
- Encourage client self-discovery
- Elicit client-generated solutions and strategies
- Hold the client responsible and accountable

Part Two: The ICF Definition of Coaching

Professional Coaching is an ongoing professional relationship that helps people produce extraordinary results in their lives, careers, businesses or organizations. Through the process of coaching, clients deepen their learning, improve their performance, and enhance their quality of life.

In each meeting, the client chooses the focus of conversation, while the coach listens and contributes observations and questions. This interaction creates clarity and moves the client into action. Coaching accelerates the client's progress by providing greater focus and awareness of choice. Coaching concentrates on where clients are now and what they are willing to do to get where they want to be in the future. ICF member coaches and ICF credentialed coaches recognize that results are a matter of the client's intentions, choices and actions, supported by the coach's efforts and application of the coaching process.

For more information on the ICF code of ethics visit www.coachfederation.org .

Today was a bit busy. When I finally returned home I had some hard lemonade over ice and relaxed. My head hurt. I took a mini nap after sipping my lemonade. When I woke up I tried studying but instead I watched Girilicious.

Girilicous is a TV show about a bunch of girls wanting to be the next Pussy Cat Dolls. The lady who made hot singing group, Pussy Cat Dolls, is trying to make a new girl group called Girlicious. Any who, it was interesting to watch. Girls can be very mean in a sneaky way.

I went to the gym and ran today! My goal is to fit back into my size 6 jeans OK they were a 5. Sounds too skinny doesn't it? Before children my body was naturally petite. My body is structured to be petite any bigger then 5 or 7 I lose shape. (I've got a very modest bust size. shhh...) Moving on .... By June I will be healthier and happier and my fabulous self again but better because it's boring to be static.

Question: Is it bad to be confident? How can you be confident in a good way?

Attention! All Models ....

March 8 - 9 at the Oregon State Fair Grounds in the Columbia Hall area A huge Modeling Event will take place.

Project Multimedia will have a booth set up along with the Whos Next group at the event. Whos Next will also be playing on the main stage.

At our booth we will have a professional hairstylist and make-up artist ready to transform a random passer by into a glamorous model. After hair and make-up is completed the lucky woman or man will get their photo profesionaly taken.

So for those of you who aspire to be a model come check us out. For more info check-out www.modelcoachinginternational.com . See you there!

Beer Tasting: Fosters

This beer has a light smooth taste at first. Then it gently leaves a full bodied flavor on your tongue.

How do you discover what your passion is?

Understand my life is more than what my past is.

In my past I was being smothered by stronger personalities that dominated my actions and thoughts. Is was only when I reached out to God that I found the strength to climb out from the pile of rotting feces and hear and see past poisoned words and mannequin actions.

In the present I am someone new. A different person has survived from the past. I can discover myself and my passion for life.

How do you discover what your passion is?

I know I can't answer the question completely for you but here is what I've been doing.

In Aug 2007 I changed my job, from nurse aid to assistant at a design firm. I moved from north to south in my town. I colored and cut my hair from long to short. I changed my educational goals from nursing to journalism. I have also gained about 30-35 lbs in about 10 months because I've eaten primarily fast food and cut out exercise. Recently, I have been to the gym three days in a row (four if I go today) and I eat out less and control my meal portions more.

Change. I've changed my job, location, look, and my educational goals. I feel like I'm this ugly caterpillar and I'm spinning my cocoon and my goal is to come out beautifully in the end. How do I do that?

Discover. I skipped highschool and earned my GED and I've been attending college part-time for the past 3 years. I've changed my career focus several times. In the beginning I was looking for a degree I can complete quickly so I can get right to work. Keep in mind that I was still married and feces were still being thrown at me when I began college. He (my x-husband) didn't like me being out of his sight. Now that I've found room to breath and space to grow I've discovered that I would be happier with my first love, writing.

I would like to believe I've found passion, writing. Two years ago my passion was nursing. For about two years I worked as a nurse assistant. Working closely with someone who had discovered there passion is nursing I realized that it wasn't my calling or my passion. So what makes me think writing is my passion?

Remember, my life is more then what my past is. Who I was then is different than who I am now. Changing my environment and discovering the world without being buried by mountains of fowl words and manufactured actions or dictated by narrow minded people who don't know how to let a person grow or care less or more to leave the girl alone, I remembered just how much I loved to write.

Getting the perfect words in the right order down on paper or blog. The infinite ways a sentence could be structured. Knowing that the words chosen can communicate different feelings. Like "smooth skin" as oppose to "silky skin". The first sounds nice but the second not only describes how the skin feels but it can reveal the mood in which a writer would like to direct the reader to arrive at. Perhaps both can create mood (of course they both can) but that is how versatile writing is. You can bend it any way you want. Actually being able to write the way you want and the way it actually comes out are two different things.

I love writing. I do.

For the sake of those whose passion is not writing I will move on. I believe writing is my passion. Only time and my actions will reveal the truth. My advice to those who are trying to find their passion:

You are more then what your past is. Change. Break free and let yourself grow. Find that light you may have lost during the course of your life. Discover. Let yourself into unknown waters. Perhaps a seed planted in you when you were younger will begin to grow. For me, it was my writing. I don't know if anyone planted the seed of writing in me but I know that since I've let myself change and grow many things that were smothered and forgotten are finding there way out.

Clase de Espanol

Yo tengo un examen en mi clase de espanol. Estoy nerviosa pero yo estudiaba mucho.

(I have a test in my spanish class. I am nervous but I studied alot.)

I don't feel like studied spanish right now. I need too but I'd rather surf the interenet or read up on stocks and writing.

Valentines Day

Our 2nd Valentine was an experience I'll quietly remember.

Last year I made reservations at Hotel Lucia located in the heart of Portland. Our room had a fully stocked bar with all the delicous cravings a guest would think of ... m & m's, cashews, alcohol, skittles, more alcohol, and so on.

The bed was enormous and comfortable. Upon arrival we had champange and Moonstruck chocolates and beautiful red champagne glasses waiting for us. After a night around the town we came back and went to sleep. (I had just started my period. Of all the days!)

Our night included dinner at the Typhoon, Harvey's Comedy Club, and dancing.

----------------------- 2008 Valentine -----------------
We went on a treasure hunt with Kate Hudson and Matthew Mconaughy in Fools Gold. Which is a romantic comedy about a couple who loves adventure, the sea, and the hunt for gold.

After the movie we browsed the books at Borders. Somewhere between Borders and our dinner reservations at Bently's in Downtown Salem we had a deep conversation. Hamil spoke his peace and how I understand it is that he belives I am to blame for him being late and not getting things done and so on. It's complicated. Anywho ..... the mood at dinner was melow. I felt like crying but I didn't.

I can't control no man's actions or be held responsible for them either. I may not have been as helpful but .... If you have a problem with me you might want to say it as soon as it occurs rather then wait for Valentines to roll around for you to tear my heart out. He was gentle with his words and tone of voice but on Valentines day you don't want to hear complaints.

I was also upset at his criticism on the food. He said the meat was burnt and the rest lacked flavor. I was hurt because , yes the steak was slightly burnt but it was still enjoyable especially with the potatoes and tangy blue cheese sauce and the delicous pinot noir wine. He ordered a single appetizer and salad. I encouraged him to try some thing but he only wanted an appetizer. I paid for the meal and felt I had experienced something new and wonderful. I never had skirt steak and piont noir wine togethere at once or been at Bently's. I enjoyed the dinner and then paid for our meal and then quietly accepted his negative comments after quietly hearing his complaints. I had a wonderful Valentines beacuse the movie was funny, and the dinner was delicous and new to my normal food pallate. He was not in the right mood and I couldn't change that.

I'm moving on.

The Most Annoying Ads

My top three most annoying ads would have to be:

1) Wendy's commercials featuring a mixed up man pretendening to be Wendy, giving a room full of Abarham Lincolns a pep talk about how they are still useful because of Wendy's delicous value menu. I love the food but the commercial made me sick. I haven't been there since I saw the commercial.

2)The Geico radio ad where the gecko is in the birthing room while a lady is giving birth and he is talking to the soon-to-be-daddy about insurance. What is a lizard doing in the room during a very personal moment? Bad image and its going a little to far for me. Can you say invasion of privacy?

3)Burger Kings commercial that shows the King. His head is exaggerated to the point that if he creeped up on me at home uninvited I'd have to call the cops and report a weirdo in my home. I love the cheeseburgers and I still go to BK but the King is pretty odd. I do like the fact he is smiling.

I am on the internet more then I am infront of my TV or listening to the radio. The ads I see flash on my computer screen on websites or suddenly pop up out of virtual no where. I do get annoyed by spam mail. Spam mail are ads also. You know what I'm taking about. The ones that ask you to answer several questions and sign up for more junk in return for a $200 shopping spree or a free phone or something you wish you had. It's a marketing technique that truely annoys me more then my top three annoying ads.

If companies want to get creative do it with taste. Ads should create pleasing images and emotions within the targeted consumers (the people you wnat to buy your product) and relate the product properly.

Prendir (to learn)

Etoy toma un clase de espanol y un clase de periodismo. Mi clase de espanol esta dificil porque es nueva lingua.

What I am trying to say:
I am taking a spanish class and a journalism class. My spanish class is difficult because it is a new language.

I need to take the language class becuase any four year college will reject you if you don't know a second language or have atleast tried to learn one in college or highschool.

-----Stocks $$$ ------

I am investing $75 into the stock market. the good things is if I lose it I lose it. I can never lose more then what I put on the table. However, I have been approved for a margin trading account. If I use it I could lose more then what I have. The minimum amount needed to use the margin account is $2000. I deposit $2000 and they let me borrow $2000 so I end up having a buying power of $4000. I get charged a fee for using it so if I make profit they take some of it and whatever is left after that I keep. The point is to increase my buying power and in return increase my chances for a higher return it also increases my risk.

Tilla-moooooo.....k Cheese

This picture was taken at Tillamook Cheese Factory in Oregon. They make the best cheese ever.

Hamil is my bestfriend and I love him dearly. I 've yet to meet another man who is as great as he is.

Saturday Night

It's actually Sunday now. I'm writing this late wow. I miss my Poohbear. I hope he's doing fine. He has to finish up some work that's been haunting him.

I am getting tired but I had to write. I 've been trying to figure out how to genertae income doing something I like to do and can actually do. I have started several blogs and joined a writng community on Helium.com. My goal is to never get a "traditonal" job again. That is so hard to do but I have tons of mustardseeds I'm ready to plant.

Mustard Seeds:

A website to sell certain products on

my writing

the stock market

The stock market is a tricky one but I can plant it right. Before I do any planting however I have been reading my books. So I can wait to plant. The crop will be so bountiful. Amen!

Poohbear if you are reading this remeber I love you. Good night.

Laying in Bed

My eyes are teary and my spirit is weary
My dear I fear my life near to blah
My bills unpaid my will I’m afraid
Has gone missing
There is hope and there is faith
So how does one get to point B from point A?

The Fight for Rose

Ocean of fire blazing under a luminous white moon.
A waterfall roars nearby,
cutting paths in the land.

Water and fire clash.
Unfolding a rose once enclosed.

Gently rising sun overcomes the darkness.
Embracing the bloom now open to the world.

Transformed into a bird she now takes flight.
Lifted by the summer breeze and warmed by the light.

In search of peace.
A new world she views.
A woman once tearful and torn.
Is now a woman whose heart
is
reborn.